I’m soo bad at being on time.

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Another one of those excuses as to why the picture of the week isn’t here.

Honestly.. if you ate, laughed, talked -and stuck your tongue out in order to get a baby to laugh- as much as i did today, you’d understand why i can’t post it today. This is my day in chronological order: “helping” to clean the house; running around in the park; playing on the trampoline and running around the garden; eating; cutting up fruits and arranging them like i was a Master Chef contestant; eating some more; running around a bit more; playing the guitar and singing; eating a bit more; playing with an agitated -but seriously cute- baby (i even almost spelled agitated as ”agitatatated”) and then sitting here, trying not to fall asleep over the keyboard. I don’t even think you understand how much of a struggle it was to write all of that, the spelling mistakes i made were soo bad im sure the computer doesn’t even have any corrections for it.

So, i hear your screaming and pleading for me to post it, wondering why i don’t find the pictures now. One reason; in the mood i’m in right now.. nothing is funny. So, before i break the keyboard.. i’m going to sleep.. and you’ll have to live with my lateness. Goodnight my friieenddss, goooodnigght. (You might only get that if your a Russell Howard fan! ahaa) but seriously .. i’m as grumpy as grumpy cat on a bad day.. though i;m sure everyday is a bad day for him. GOODNIGHT.

TB (:

Losing my mind.

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Despite getting 10hours sleep, i still feel crazy.

I don’t even know what to blog about most days because i feel like, if i’m not repeating myself, what i write isn’t interesting or ”good enough”. Nobody’s perfect, i can accept that. It’s just feeling like, compared to every other blogger that seems to have a certain voice.. i’m all over the place.

Not only do i feel WordPress crazy, i literally woke up today and spent the day feeling crazy. I don’t know what it is but it’s as if i’m slipping back into the times when i spent everyday thinking there was something wrong with me; taking test for Bipolar disorder to double, triple or quadruple check i wasn’t bipolar. Every time i feel this way i look for an excuse for this behavior. I hate feeling like this and it’s as if i’m crazy. If i tell someone they might not believe me; see me as an attention seeker; never look at me in the same way again.

It upsets ME when i feel this way. One second i’ll be laughing, the next crying because my brother -whose opinion wouldn’t bother be even if he said he loved Jedward- calls me ugly out of anger. Then i get thinking all of these crazy thoughts about life. Seeing it as a trap and there’s only one way out. All of these violent, crazy things are happening and i feel like i’m just trapped in a world of hate. Honestly. Everywhere i go, someone is involved in a petty argument and it just doesn’t stop. I hate it.

These days i just feel so negative. Maybe it’s because on of my ”Best friends” pretty much threw everything back in my face and claims that she didn’t even have any best friends? You find out do much about a person when you aren’t friends. I just feel like there’s so much negativity around me and it’s starting to affect me. This whole post is so damn negative that i feel like i have to think up another, especially positive post just to balance it out.. but even the thought of that is enough to make me want to burst into tears.

All i can do is just accept it all i guess. It gets to the point where sometimes i don’t even feel like myself.. I’m not the most serious person around and even when i get soo frustrated that my eyes begin to rain, i laugh (I’m not even joking). I guess all the post really meant was that these days are beginning to be my down days and, though i don’t mean to, it’s affecting the way i blog. I don’t feel like blogging because i don’t feel like i do my blog justice. I feel like everything on my blog has to be either happy or really emotional. Nobody’s perfect and i guess my blog won’t be perfect, so here’s a big splash of negativity to ruin your day! No, i’m joking, sorry for the negativity but life is life.

Pray for Oklahoma and practically the whole of mankind.. i’m beginning to lose more and more faith in humanity day by day. Sorry if this post ruined your Thursday.. all i can say to that is join the club.. love and kisses and butterflies and unicorns and rainbows, candy and lollipops.

TB ):

Demi is on Vevo!

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She’s been on it for a while but i only just thought to blog about it!

I’ve written and deleted about 5 posts in the past 2 days and now, i finally found something to write about, at long last!

So Demi Lovato’s album, Demi, recently came out and i made sure to listen to all of the songs. Some of them, as i mentioned last time i blogged, are really good and i love listening to them, others aren’t my kind of music, but to be honest, it doesn’t make me love Demi any less as an artist. From what i actually know about her, she seems like a genuine person, she’s not perfect and she knows that, her fans know that and they don’t care because her honesty imperfections makes them feel better about there’s. I thought i’d go through the song list with links to her vevo for you all! -Just as i typed that, Heart attack came on, so i’ll start with that.

Heart Attack; This was the first to come out -The teaser. I didn’t like it the first time i heard it, but it kind of grew on me. She’s talking about putting up her defenses to stop herself from falling in love and, not to get too personal, but i do that.. a lot.. even when it’s not necessary.. you probably wouldn’t believe i could be such a closed book.

Made in the USA; This song isn’t too bad, it might get tired after a while, but right now, i’m going to listen to it until i hate it. It’s a sweet song and i think it’s talking about a love that was ”Made in the USA” It seems like a really happy, close-to-perfect-but-not-perfect-because-nothing’s-perfect, kind of relationship.

Without the love; What good is a love song without the love? It’s true. In the part of this song that i know, she’s talking about someone who acts like they’re putting her first just to make them look better. She’s wondering why they’re ”singing” about love when there is none.. it makes it all worthless.

Neon Lights; This song is pretty catchy, not my type of song, but not to say i wouldn’t listen to it. When they look up at the sky, there will be shooting stars just passing by. It’s a bit of a ..party song?.. you could call it a dance song and it really does make you want to dance. I don;t think i’ve heard Demi’s voice like that and, compared to her last album, this one is really difference. It;s like each year.. she matures? Though i’m younger than her so i can’t really say that. :L

Two Pieces; I love this song. I love the way the verse and the chorus sound so different yet the song works so well together. It seems like a really sensitive story and though, right now, i’m not 100% sure what it’s about, i know that i could sing this over and over and over.. ”We fit together like two pieces of a broken heart” <3

Nightingale; This is all making me emotional just talking about it.. arrw! Demi always makes me step back and appreciate everything. The song nightingale is, at first glance ..listen?.. Demi asking someone to be her nightingale but, when you listen further, i think she’s asking for help. For someone to help her ..like Florence nightingale did.. in her hardest times and puch her through her problems. Someone brave who can pour some of their bravery into her.

In case; The words of the song in case always make me think back to her eating disorder. She refers to her refrigerator so.. I guess she could be also taking about anything that you leave ”in case” of anything. The memory you didn’t forget, that thing that ”he” or ”she” gave to you.

Really don’t care; This song features Cher Lloyd and is another one of those that i probably wouldn’t listen to but everyone’s different and you actually might like it. Reminds me freakishly of One Direction in the beginning ..shivers.. But, i guess Demi really doesn’t care.. or Cher.. haha, i found that funny -not sure anyone else would but.. okay.

Fire Starter; Demi’s a fire starter. This song is the kind that gets annoying quite quickly. She talks about being a bad ass and jumping off a train and i get lost. Demi.. Train doors don’t open when they’re moving.. and fires are bad.. Bad, Demi.. Bad.

Something that you’re not; I guess this is about someone acting like their relationship is something that it isn’t. He probably can’t take the fact that he’s been friend zoned and is using this to help heal his broken ego.. This sounded less harsh in my head.. :L

Never been hurt; Even if she loses it all, she’s got so much more to give. She’s not saying that she’s never been hurt before but that she’s going to fall in love as if she’s never been hurt before. This is good advice for other people. Love like you’ve never been hurt. Leave the past in the past.

Shouldn’t come back; I think this is about the end of a relationship that she’s in. She doesn’t want to let him go but she thinks it would be better if he didn’t come back. He makes her unhappy and it’s not worth it. I think it might actually be about her dad?

Warrior; Beside Heart Attack, this is one of the best, possibly one of the most emotional songs on the album and i love it. It talks about her being stronger and she is strong. She’s gone through a lot and she’s not looking to hide it. She’s gone through so much and she’s stronger than she’s ever been. It’s like she’s telling people that they’ll be stronger once it’s all over. Bless her heart.

I really love Demi’s albums. I’ve only heard 2 -Demi being the 2nd one- but they’re always so.. there’s always a songon it that you don’t get tired of. Full of soo much emotion that it’s like Demi is personally reaching out to you and letting you know that you CAN do it. I’m not much of an emotional person -Anger and happiness is pretty much all i feel- but Demi’s album just makes me sit back and think.. compared to a lot of other people.. i have an easy life. Don’t ever take that for granted because, one day, it will be gone and you want to  be able to look back and know you had a good life. Bless you all.

TB (:

Titanium – Sian and David Guetta

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I wouldn’t usually post a karaoke but there’s nothing wrong with a little D.I.Y. Not to sound all philosophical but there are some people out there who actually need to feel the lyrics to this song. Today, after writing a post about not posting a post and then not posting that post, i was singing this and i realised.. the words can mean a lot to me if i let them.
Today was a pretty strange day and, i won’t go into detail, but i was left feeling pretty hurt and angry. The words just seemed to make more sense today. ”You cut me down, but it’s you who has further to fall” You can say or do whatever you like, hurt me with your words or physically, but it’s you who’s going to be hurting the most at the end of it all.
A lot of people need to tell themselves that they ARE Titanium. Your strong and you don’t need to pay attention to the people who are trying to tear you down. On a childish note, i triple dare you to sing this. Maybe just the chorus, maybe the whole thing.. even if you’re on your phone on a crowded train :P -i’d love to see that one. You’re Titaaaaaaanniiiiiiuuuuuummmmmm! :P

TB (:

Important things that cartoons have taught me.

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Inspired by TV.. without you, i wouldn’t be able to say what i want to right now.. so thank you.

I don’t know if you’ve found any, but there are some important life lessons that cartoons have taught me and i thought i’d share a few of those with you. Don’t try any of these at home and all that. Lettuce begin.. (That’s when you say ”Yes, Lettuce”)

  • If you’re in a situation where your about to fall off a cliff; Don’t look down.

Never look down. The second you do, you’ll fall to your death. You won’t actually die, obviously, cartoons are immortal, but you’ll be badly injured for a short period of time. After that i guess you’ll be back to your old ways and able to function again.. just don’t get yourself into a situation where you’ll be about to fall off of a cliff.

  • Before you run into a brick wall, get into a really cool position.

When you’re so desperate to leave a room that you can’t waste time opening and closing a door, just run through the walls.. you’ll go straight through them. Of course you have to get into an amazing pose, it’s all part of the fun. Make sure you go face first though, we don’t want any broken noses.. Surgery is expensive these days!

  • Whenever you’re in snowy mountains, scream. You’ll be rolled into a snowball and outside of your cabin door in seconds.

When you’re stuck in the thick snow and you need a quick, easy way to get back to the cabin; just scream -or clap or stomp your feet or eve yodeling. An avalanche of snow will come tumbling down, picking you up like lint and rolling you into a snowball DIRECTLY in front of you cabin door.. free of charge, i might add. Now, THAT is what i call service.

  • Be sure not to leave your video camera lying around, toys can make movies behind your back.

I mean, look at Woody and his friends.. they made 3 whole movies and Andy didn’t even know. I bet he didn’t know that Buzz liked Jessie.. or that the toys in that Nursery were evil! He didn’t even realize the times when Andy escaped from the box and almost lost him. Hide those cameras! Who knows what your toys could be doing!

  • Rats are REALLY good cooks.. buy yourself a rat.

All you need is a rat and some hair and voila! You’ll be the best cook around. Everyone need a little chef in their hat to help them cook the best ratatouille in town. Why stop at one.. why not make a whole restaurant run by rats? The more the merrier right? Who cares that rodents are going to be cooking your food?.. They’re always sure to wash their hands.

  • There’s no need to age.. or even change your clothes.

Cartoons have said ”What the hey!” to growing up or getting dressed. Why have lots of DIFFERENT outfits.. when you could just wear the same one over and over ..Unless it’s a special episode, that is.. You can live forever -or until the creator stops making episodes- in the same clothes and have an amazing life.. for about 10-20 minutes everyday.. perfection right?

Well, that’s what cartoons have taught me, feel free to add any that i’ve missed. I hope you take these important life lessons into consideration, you never know when you’ll need them. Tomorrow could be the day! Hope everyone’s looking forward to Monday!

TB (: